tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-72031936271603496362024-02-06T19:10:10.162-07:00Free Total Faithful FruitfulBut I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.comBlogger82125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-14028881100699368262014-03-24T10:36:00.002-06:002014-03-24T10:36:20.568-06:00UpdateThank you to all of you who responded to my last post. I'm so grateful for your compassion and love. Honestly, you are so appreciated. Your prayers have been effective.
Since I posted and received your comments, I've not experienced an episode, so I think that naming the evil and bringing it into the light was a really good first step. Still, I'm think you are all right; I need to take advantageKJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-4647360609794297402014-03-05T09:54:00.000-07:002014-03-05T09:54:14.409-07:00Satan BreathesI'm sorry to have dropped off the face of the blog-planet. I don't have time to write this. I don't have time to do much at all, except work/school and take care of my children. But I have to get this out and process it by writing because Satan is breathing down my neck. He is terrorizing me. And I have to bring his evil into the light and call it by name. I am warning you now that there is toughKJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-65599240101555291622013-09-30T15:30:00.001-06:002013-09-30T15:30:38.624-06:00Meet Azelia JosephineI'm finally coming up for air.
If you don't want to see baby pictures, or if you're not in a place to be receptive to baby-talk, I totally get it. Just skip this post. It took me a long time to get there myself. But some of you have been on this journey with me, and it has been a long time coming, so I will share her with you. My greatest hope is that she will be a sign of God's faithfulness andKJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-15921298712626942712013-09-12T10:00:00.000-06:002013-09-12T10:00:24.394-06:00What He's Really Saying is......"Let Me make this work for you. Trust Me to make it work."
When we were discerning how late into the year we would keep trying and being open to life, we decided that if we were really to trust that God could take care of us, we couldn't worry about a baby being born right when my program started, or any time of the year. We decided that if we stopped being open to life, for fear of that KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-70376991827446616352013-09-09T09:51:00.001-06:002013-09-09T09:51:33.422-06:00Courage and TrustToday is my due date. I wish I could report that baby girl has arrived or will arrive today, but I'm afraid it isn't going to happen.
I'm feeling so discouraged. My body just doesn't do what it is supposed to do. I've been having false labor for two weeks. TWO WEEKS of thinking "today might be the day!" or "This really has to be it" or "I had better call my husband and have him come home." All KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-25824855883949957212013-08-19T15:59:00.001-06:002013-08-19T15:59:46.569-06:00Send Up a Quick Prayer for my Friend if You CanGals,
I just learned this morning that a dear friend of mine and her husband just lost their first baby last Saturday. If you have one minute today, please send up a quick prayer for their healing. My heart is absolutely broken for her, and I know you girls have powerful prayers and so much love in your hearts.
St. Gerard, pray for us. St. Gianna, pray for us. Blessed Marie Azelie Martin, pray KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-45465792811778269692013-08-12T10:06:00.000-06:002013-08-12T10:06:57.020-06:00Prayer IntentionsIt's time.
Today marks thirty-six weeks of this blessed journey. With four weeks to go, I'm processing so many emotions and trying to be "ready" by preparing in every way I can. But even now, God is showing me that I won't be "ready;" I will have to let go of the perfection I seek and the superficial peace that comes with feeling prepared. Saying goodbye to Romeo Gerard taught me that. Waiting KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-89890211722439916142013-08-07T09:33:00.002-06:002013-08-07T09:33:19.181-06:00Please pray with me......in praise of God for His Glory. His Mercy. His Love.
When this girl is downtrodden, the Lord sends His Grace through many means, and I just want to praise Him for His faithfulness. Specifically, I am praying praise for:
*all you who read, commented, and/or prayed after my last post. You really don't know how much your support boosted me in spirit. You gals are the friends I long to have.
*KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-23155243692744200522013-07-30T15:20:00.000-06:002013-07-30T15:20:08.374-06:00Just Need to VentFeel free to skip out on this post if you're not in the mood to hear it. But dang, I've just got to vent a wee bit.
I know I "asked" for all these things in some way or another, and that in the long term I will get over it, but right now is hard. I trust in the Lord's provision and in what He has put in front of us. I still believe that He wants us to be here, and He wants me to be doing this. KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-62093318192421798332013-07-25T09:35:00.000-06:002013-07-25T09:35:56.198-06:00TDaP To-DoI'm not sure if you have ever had the TDaP vaccine before, but I have and it went just fine. That is, until two days ago.
I had one about three years ago when I was pregnant with little A. No problem.
But on Monday, I received the vaccine again, because apparently they want you to have one with every pregnancy even though the recommended booster is supposed to be every ten years. I've got KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-21877996775818002952013-07-09T17:04:00.000-06:002013-07-09T17:04:00.121-06:00For You, Tiny OneLanguage fails to allow an explanation as to how treasured you are. Pure gift. Someone of immeasurable value, given freely to your daddy and me (and to your siblings) by a God who loves so much. I know He delights in you. We do too.
I admit that I'm anxious about your birth, about the adjustment to our family. I'm nervous because with your sister, we were in similar circumstances--I was in KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-45109241308488541442013-07-07T07:23:00.000-06:002013-07-07T07:23:00.047-06:00One YearIt has been one year. One whole year since Romeo Gerard passed away and entered into the arms of Jesus and His Blessed Mother. Oh my son, how I miss you. How I cherish you. Perhaps, having heaven's eyes, you can see how singularly I love you.
I'm not spending today mourning. Yesterday we had angel food cake to celebrate his day, and we went to Holy Mass to honor him. Today, I'm going to have KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-64331369873392053352013-07-01T17:40:00.000-06:002013-07-01T17:40:52.143-06:00This still, small weekIt's still because last year, at this exact time, I was waiting for the day when Romeo Gerard would pass. And time stood still for at least a week.
It's small because, though time was still, it was short. Suddenly it was happening, and it was awful. Nothing could have prepared me for his passing, and that made the time all the shorter.
One week from Sunday is the first anniversary of Romeo KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-66337316244965348072013-06-19T21:20:00.001-06:002013-06-19T21:20:05.374-06:00Finally Back Online!Well, my few days' hiatus turned into nearly a month!
Little A and I have arrived in our new state, and lived in our apartment for about a week. And we finally have internet. Thank goodness.
Now, while I get into the swing of things here, I've been praying for you gals. I haven't been keeping up on your blogs, but I'm thinking of you and I promise to catch up as soon as Little A gets into her KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-47092196776157586002013-05-27T13:40:00.005-06:002013-05-27T13:40:43.619-06:00HiatusJust a quick note to say I'm going to be on hiatus for a few days while I help my hubby pack up the uhaul and enjoy his company.
After six weeks without him, I am soooooooo appreciating him. It's amazing the energy you save when your husband can carry the toddler up three flights of stairs, no problem. What's more amazing is how nicely things run when the family is in order. God's ways are the KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-80680802520542584052013-05-23T06:23:00.000-06:002013-05-23T06:23:13.131-06:00HeavenI don't usually permit myself to envision heaven. I don't allow myself to think about what it will be like, or who will be there, or what my experience might be in heaven.
It's partly because the concept of heaven, though I believe it is as real as real can be, is too vast for me to grasp in my mind. It's partly because I don't want to presume something so beautiful, so True, so perfect, can be KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-80485705527619483182013-05-17T14:45:00.001-06:002013-05-17T14:45:42.016-06:00Getting Pretty Excited About Switching DoctorsSo today was my last OB appointment here in my current town. My next appointment will be in our new state, and let me tell ya, after today I'm really looking forward to it.
It wasn't horrible, but it left me really thinking how wonderful it would be to have a doctor who could really care about how I feel about pregnancy and children. A Catholic doctor is an invaluable doctor.
I explained to my KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-81792450390207958932013-05-12T10:05:00.000-06:002013-05-12T10:05:00.134-06:00A Letter to Myself Before MotherhoodSelf,
Yes. I'm doing this. I'm writing a letter you will never read until it's too late. And it's cliche now, I know. To write a letter to your past self. But I'm writing it for others too--those who might be in your position, that in which you are hopeful, still skinny (even though you don't think so), just married, trying to control everything, and in which you do not yet have children. And KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-15207164665383842592013-05-10T08:23:00.000-06:002013-05-10T08:23:00.411-06:00Seven Quick Takes: I need your advice!Last week's takes were a bit on the depressing side, so I'm going for a little lighter feel this morning. I'm also asking for a lot of advice, so feel free to give it where you can! And as always, thanks to Jen, for hosting!
Not my actual hand, but looks close to my situation.
1. My fingers are swelling kinda fast. I really need to get my rings off before they have to be cut off. AnyoneKJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-47216861058005449112013-05-07T22:48:00.000-06:002013-05-07T22:48:22.979-06:00Women and AgapeThis afternoon, as I left work on my way to pick up little A, this song came on the radio:
I belong with you; you belong with me. You're my sweetheart.
Days like this, I miss my husband. A lot.
I associate this song with one of the first times I actually felt happy after we lost Romeo Gerard. My husband told me we were going to dinner; he had booked reservations at a hip and fancy KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-21381123866394087732013-05-06T10:10:00.000-06:002013-05-06T10:10:59.020-06:00I Feel It Every DayNow that I am visibly pregnant, the questions have started:
Do you know what you're having? When are you due? How do you feel? How far along are you?
I don't mind questions. I think it's a positive sign that people are interested in pregnancy. But there is one question I really really detest.
Is this your first?
It's such an innocent question. I used to love answering this question. I think IKJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-23975303523383065382013-05-03T08:34:00.000-06:002013-05-03T10:40:05.229-06:007QT: Evil and HopeOk. I like to be all about the hopeful here on FTFF. You guys know I talk about hope a whole lot. But I'm taking a page from Mama Needs Coffee's 7 Quick Takes this morning, and I'm going to call out the evil where I see it.
You know the great thing about naming evil and rebuking it? You always end up with Hope.
1. I know my comments are late on this one, but here we go anyway: three out of KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-42612150678349336462013-05-02T11:39:00.000-06:002013-05-02T11:39:02.967-06:00So Here's Something Weird......and I don't mean weird in a negative way, but just weird.A few weeks ago we went to Marybeth's clinic, had a 3D ultrasound, and found out we were having a boy! The picture looked very clear. So we put our minds to work coming up with boy's names, even asked for your input (thanks Kat!), and started using "he" to describe little L Baby.
Well, today I went in for my 20-ish week ultrasound at myKJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-5765254035635678172013-04-28T10:35:00.000-06:002013-04-28T10:35:00.047-06:00Contraceptive Culture Isn't Just About the Pill: Part ThreeThis is part three of my series on Contraceptive Culture. I've decided to write on a few topics that are of major concern to me. If you would like to guest post, please comment, and we can get in touch.
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Before diving into the topic of today's post, I'd like to clarify what I mean by "Contraceptive Culture," and discuss its similarities to the term "Contraceptive Mentality." For the purposesKJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7203193627160349636.post-12244232391425722462013-04-26T09:33:00.002-06:002013-04-26T09:34:04.040-06:00Seven Quick TakesHappy Friday everyone! I'm really praising the Lord this morning for a Friday. I am ready for a weekend, ready to get moving. Also, so so glad Jen is back in the game. Praised be Jesus!
How to Quit Your Job
While I probably don't hate my job as much as this guy,
I am SUPER happy to be moving on with my life.
1. I'm giving my notice to my current job next week. I'm trying to give them three KJLhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10144013591506102232noreply@blogger.com3